Unrequited Love

Fall in love with her, lose her, still love her, hate myself, etc.
yeah.. It's called life. Sometimes Life sucks.
Nowadays it's hard to even find a relationship with mutual love. It's pathetic how people use love so lightly. People seem to think love is able to fade. If it is love, you keep it. Forever.. Which is why it hurts so much for someone you love to leave you, because it just means.
They never truly loved you back.

not too deep pain. maybe.

just "liking", but not "already".
didnt give all of me. knowing first before loving.

im not easy to like someone, idk really liked her.
still at the stage of liking, not a love yet. but idk why hurt.
if only she ever given chance to know me more.
im a man who's willing to sacrifice almost everything for someone that i love. not just on my mouth.

now she alr loves another guy, a "better" men.
now maybe im just a guy who disturb them.
just hold it, hold any longer til this pain's gone..

my fault, my mistakes.
regret, but lesson learned is the only positive thing.

2 kind of Human

1. baik2 nya cuma di awal, kalo uda dapet, uda ga penasaran, uda bosen, jadi cuek?
Banyak

2. kalo sekalinya uda terlanjur sayang, tambah lama tambah sayang.
Already fall in love with wrong person is painful as hell when ur love is getting stronger along with time.
gonna admit it, first love is the hardest. took quite a long time to completely forget it. care with feeling, love with feeling. too much.. traumatic..
won't fall for the second time.
Test before loving.
just wait. wait for the someone who sincerely love you. accept you for who you are. grateful.
someone who seek ur heart, not only ur wealth, fame, or beauty. and never leave ..

"Cancer"

one and a half year

Hello again old buddy...

New Life

move to Jakarta

met with many old friends,

met with new ppl, 

develop some new business
so this is Jakarta.

Better life, new hope, peaceful mind.

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somehow when i'm sad i just want to pour it in writing..

why so traumatic to fall in love with someone
why so traumatic losing someone that you really love, fell in sorrow every night, cant sleep, long night... totally dying inside.
bestfriend cheer me up every day. hard to rise.
sensitive silly guy.
realized this love is getting stronger along with time..
care too much, love too much.
she left. i hope she comeback. i beg.
losing someone you love is the worst shit feeling ever in the world..
love too much, hard to fade, heart broken, pain like hell shit. depression.
makes me harder to believe with someone.. traumatic..
don't want to love wrong person again..
don't want to feel this hell again.
hope someday will find the one. someone who can accept my as it is, grateful. grow old together.
someone who sincerely love me. will love her unconditionally.. all of me
because nobody perfect.
beauty will fade, true love getting stronger as time goes by..